Incomplete thought: I'm coming out of a program in which my advisor is a radical feminist, so under her influence I find myself struggling with these questions every day. She's built so much into my own feminism that I have to compartmentalize the part of me that loves and writes porn away from the feminist, but it doesn't feel right. I do that because she hates porn, finds it patriarchal, and she defines my feminism through my admiration of her. Mainstream porn certainly is patriarchal, but it seems to me what we do here on the internet as a community of intelligent women isn't patriarchal. Retaliatory? I think so, in my case anyway. Because sometimes writing about men doing other men feels like a strike back at all the male-pov-lesbian action in mainstream porn. It's like, you think that's hot, guys? Yeah? Well look at the way we women can make men interact. Or not even a strike back at the mainstream porn industry, but the good ol' boy homophobe porn purchasers who'd bash gay men in a heartbeat, but who love to watch two women get it on as long as there's a male director behind the camera calling the shots. But that's not right, either. It shouldn't be retaliation. I don't want to have anything in common with good ol' boys, but that violent impule to strike back sounds like I'm inching over their way.
And I'll trail off there, because I started out just offering applause, but I've written myself into a corner. I
*Gracelessly bows out, aware of flawed logic, offering kudos and big hugs*
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Date: 2004-09-26 02:48 pm (UTC)Incomplete thought:
I'm coming out of a program in which my advisor is a radical feminist, so under her influence I find myself struggling with these questions every day. She's built so much into my own feminism that I have to compartmentalize the part of me that loves and writes porn away from the feminist, but it doesn't feel right. I do that because she hates porn, finds it patriarchal, and she defines my feminism through my admiration of her. Mainstream porn certainly is patriarchal, but it seems to me what we do here on the internet as a community of intelligent women isn't patriarchal. Retaliatory? I think so, in my case anyway. Because sometimes writing about men doing other men feels like a strike back at all the male-pov-lesbian action in mainstream porn. It's like, you think that's hot, guys? Yeah? Well look at the way we women can make men interact. Or not even a strike back at the mainstream porn industry, but the good ol' boy homophobe porn purchasers who'd bash gay men in a heartbeat, but who love to watch two women get it on as long as there's a male director behind the camera calling the shots. But that's not right, either. It shouldn't be retaliation. I don't want to have anything in common with good ol' boys, but that violent impule to strike back sounds like I'm inching over their way.
And I'll trail off there, because I started out just offering applause, but I've written myself into a corner. I
*Gracelessly bows out, aware of flawed logic, offering kudos and big hugs*