Oh, man, JO. That was PERFECT thinking on Sam's part. And such a fucked up thing to ask a person to do, not that Sam would mind when it comes to his brother. ;)
Dean's thoughts about losing Sam's respect being the worst thing about Hell, and how Sam LOST that respect because Dean was "weak". Spot on, hon!
But first there’d be yelling and disappointment, and Sam didn’t know how he was going to handle the sadness in Dean’s eyes, the puzzlement over why Sam wasn’t a better person.
Yes, THIS!
According to Sam, that crazy doctor’s ghost had put a chunk of rage in Sam’s head and Sam had taken it out on the first person he saw. Honestly, Dean thought that was not nearly as true as Sam liked to believe, but he’d gotten over it a long time ago.
&hearts
Dean jerked, because that took them out onto open ocean, no land in sight.
Gorgeous image.
Sam could fuck him until Dean didn’t know his own name and Dean would still be catnip for random strangers.
Dean-as-catnip is a PERFECT description here.
And oh, Dean is so DEFEATED after the sex with Sam here. With the not really wanting to live in a cage, but at the same time so CONVINCED he's going back to Hell when he dies ... ::snuggles him::
It felt good, being wanted like that, even if it was fake.
This HURT. In a good way. :)
Dying had taught Dean that Sam wasn’t ever going to get normal while he thought that Dean still needed saving, or even avenging. Dean needed to make sure that he was safe, truly safe, and then Sam would be able to move on. And sure, it was selfish of Dean to ask Sam to submit to the incubus glamor in the meantime, but he’d always be selfish when it came to Sam, holding on so tight that it only made Sam want to get further away in the end.
He had to find a permanent fix. Sam was twisting himself up for Dean again. Dean was grateful that this time they weren’t heading towards apocalypse, of course, but that wasn’t a huge consolation when he glanced over towards Sam and watched Sam jerk away, like he couldn’t stand Dean’s eyes on him.
OMG, GORGEOUS!! And so TRUE!
And OMG to Dean getting rid of himself for Sam's sake. Why do I not have a good feeling about his plan ...
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Date: 2009-09-01 09:45 pm (UTC)Dean's thoughts about losing Sam's respect being the worst thing about Hell, and how Sam LOST that respect because Dean was "weak". Spot on, hon!
But first there’d be yelling and disappointment, and Sam didn’t know how he was going to handle the sadness in Dean’s eyes, the puzzlement over why Sam wasn’t a better person.
Yes, THIS!
According to Sam, that crazy doctor’s ghost had put a chunk of rage in Sam’s head and Sam had taken it out on the first person he saw. Honestly, Dean thought that was not nearly as true as Sam liked to believe, but he’d gotten over it a long time ago.
&hearts
Dean jerked, because that took them out onto open ocean, no land in sight.
Gorgeous image.
Sam could fuck him until Dean didn’t know his own name and Dean would still be catnip for random strangers.
Dean-as-catnip is a PERFECT description here.
And oh, Dean is so DEFEATED after the sex with Sam here. With the not really wanting to live in a cage, but at the same time so CONVINCED he's going back to Hell when he dies ... ::snuggles him::
It felt good, being wanted like that, even if it was fake.
This HURT. In a good way. :)
Dying had taught Dean that Sam wasn’t ever going to get normal while he thought that Dean still needed saving, or even avenging. Dean needed to make sure that he was safe, truly safe, and then Sam would be able to move on. And sure, it was selfish of Dean to ask Sam to submit to the incubus glamor in the meantime, but he’d always be selfish when it came to Sam, holding on so tight that it only made Sam want to get further away in the end.
He had to find a permanent fix. Sam was twisting himself up for Dean again. Dean was grateful that this time they weren’t heading towards apocalypse, of course, but that wasn’t a huge consolation when he glanced over towards Sam and watched Sam jerk away, like he couldn’t stand Dean’s eyes on him.
OMG, GORGEOUS!! And so TRUE!
And OMG to Dean getting rid of himself for Sam's sake. Why do I not have a good feeling about his plan ...