Felix was doing it because it was a habit and because it would make him feel bad, so working through that was about fixing Felix, not about healing his relationship with Mildmay, which kind of happened alongside and not via the caretaking Oh, that makes it clearer! So, I think that's why it felt off: because it is more psychologically realistic, but at the same time I think I was feeling that Felix was off working out his own issues (and pleasures) while Mildmay was just lying there close to death, without them being particularly involved with each other (well, M because he was mostly unconscious), just when you thought they would most be...
And then even though F&M were quite nice to each other through the rest of the novel, I never felt it had the charge of their old, dysfunctional relationship (as it wouldn't, right? and would be the better for that, realistically speaking)
So it was missing the hooker h/c kink juice, and also, most of the co-dependency kink juice that powered the other books...
And giving up those kinks was a kind of brave thing to do--and to move away from the tragic implosion of an ending that the rest of the series seemed to be leading up to--but I could admire it more than I could actually enjoy it...
*likes her kink juice too much* *likes the phrase a lot too*
I see what you mean about hooker!fic. Every once in a while I read one I like--but the fantasy quotient is pretty high--
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Date: 2009-07-09 03:08 am (UTC)Oh, that makes it clearer! So, I think that's why it felt off: because it is more psychologically realistic, but at the same time I think I was feeling that Felix was off working out his own issues (and pleasures) while Mildmay was just lying there close to death, without them being particularly involved with each other (well, M because he was mostly unconscious), just when you thought they would most be...
And then even though F&M were quite nice to each other through the rest of the novel, I never felt it had the charge of their old, dysfunctional relationship (as it wouldn't, right? and would be the better for that, realistically speaking)
So it was missing the hooker h/c kink juice, and also, most of the co-dependency kink juice that powered the other books...
And giving up those kinks was a kind of brave thing to do--and to move away from the tragic implosion of an ending that the rest of the series seemed to be leading up to--but I could admire it more than I could actually enjoy it...
*likes her kink juice too much* *likes the phrase a lot too*
I see what you mean about hooker!fic. Every once in a while I read one I like--but the fantasy quotient is pretty high--