(sorry about replying to myself, lj can't cope with the length of my enthusiasm)
"I know that what I did is what got us here. I know we've spent the past few years going from death to death, and the price tag just gets higher, and I got us used to paying."
He looked up into Sam's eyes—he would have put his hands on Sam's shoulders, if not for the fear that Sam would get skittish and knock him unconscious to finish the job.
"But I'm asking you—I'm begging you—be better than me. Be stronger."
Dean looked at Sam—really looked, allowing himself to notice all the strain and grief written on his face and in the hunch of his shoulders. A bad year for Winchesters, he thought. Maybe a bad generation. Sam was staring right back, searching for something in Dean's face, but since Dean didn't know what, he didn't try to give it. He just remembered that Sam was his brother, and was all that mattered in the world, and maybe the only way for the world to be worth saving was to be willing to let it end.
"... Okay," Sam breathed.
Those paragraphs, I just. Don't know what to say. In some ways it's what I want Sam and Dean to understand, what everyone wants them to realise. That it has to stop. That Dean shouldn't have sold his soul for Sam, because a brother in Hell is worse than a brother just dead, that Sam mustn't damn himself via a different path in his quest to break the deal and become a leader in Hell, because I don't even know if that's worse than being a prisoner. But oh it's so tragic. There is no way for it to end well that I can see! Every time they put off one thing they sink deeper in to do it. Get something good, lose something else, sometimes something more. And this time they actually had a chance to break even. To die free and clear. The situation is so dire that death without a guaranteed ticket to the Pit is actually a best case scenario! Oh god. It's like death is their gift. Okay shut up now. I was actually willing to accept (okay, lets just say respond with floods of tears, but not death threats, rather than accept) Sam and Dean dying in the end, letting themselves die, because together and not being evil is the only way that Sam and Dean can go out, the only way they deserve to go out. But then you pulled this incredibly anti-climactic (in a good good way!), really really Buffy little happy ending out. And Sam and Dean are alive and bound to nothing and they have a whole load of new friends and I am smiling so my face aches.
Ack. I skipped straight to the emotionally epic end without mentioning the equally epic deal breaking! So cool dude. So. Cool. There were evil lawyers (Lilah!) and contract loopholes and someone finally thinking to re use the S4 deus ex machina and cartoon Sam and Dean. Let me say that again because it can take it. Cartoon Sam and Dean. And Sam actually had to crawl inside Dean. And Sam and Dean were one person. And the doors in their mind unlocked. And they totally took the demon ("I'm a Winchester, bitch"). And I know I’m just repeating back what you wrote in incoherent prose bullet points rather than actually commenting but the incredible awesomeness and coolness of the whole thing is just there explicit and obvious in the text. How can I point it out without seeming redundant?
As much as anything though I just enjoyed seeing some of my favourite characters who'll never get to meet interacting with each other with recognisable distinct voices. I always hope for sequels of stories I love, but I especially feverently hope that you write something else that combines SPN and BtVS. You do both so well.
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Date: 2008-03-27 04:19 am (UTC)(sorry about replying to myself, lj can't cope with the length of my enthusiasm)
"I know that what I did is what got us here. I know we've spent the past few years going from death to death, and the price tag just gets higher, and I got us used to paying."
He looked up into Sam's eyes—he would have put his hands on Sam's shoulders, if not for the fear that Sam would get skittish and knock him unconscious to finish the job.
"But I'm asking you—I'm begging you—be better than me. Be stronger."
Dean looked at Sam—really looked, allowing himself to notice all the strain and grief written on his face and in the hunch of his shoulders. A bad year for Winchesters, he thought. Maybe a bad generation. Sam was staring right back, searching for something in Dean's face, but since Dean didn't know what, he didn't try to give it. He just remembered that Sam was his brother, and was all that mattered in the world, and maybe the only way for the world to be worth saving was to be willing to let it end.
"... Okay," Sam breathed.
Those paragraphs, I just. Don't know what to say. In some ways it's what I want Sam and Dean to understand, what everyone wants them to realise. That it has to stop. That Dean shouldn't have sold his soul for Sam, because a brother in Hell is worse than a brother just dead, that Sam mustn't damn himself via a different path in his quest to break the deal and become a leader in Hell, because I don't even know if that's worse than being a prisoner. But oh it's so tragic. There is no way for it to end well that I can see! Every time they put off one thing they sink deeper in to do it. Get something good, lose something else, sometimes something more. And this time they actually had a chance to break even. To die free and clear. The situation is so dire that death without a guaranteed ticket to the Pit is actually a best case scenario!
Oh god. It's like death is their gift. Okay shut up now.I was actually willing to accept (okay, lets just say respond with floods of tears, but not death threats, rather than accept) Sam and Dean dying in the end, letting themselves die, because together and not being evil is the only way that Sam and Dean can go out, the only way they deserve to go out. But then you pulled this incredibly anti-climactic (in a good good way!), really really Buffy little happy ending out. And Sam and Dean are alive and bound to nothing and they have a whole load of new friends and I am smiling so my face aches.Ack. I skipped straight to the emotionally epic end without mentioning the equally epic deal breaking! So cool dude. So. Cool. There were evil lawyers (Lilah!) and contract loopholes and someone finally thinking to re use the S4 deus ex machina and cartoon Sam and Dean. Let me say that again because it can take it. Cartoon Sam and Dean. And Sam actually had to crawl inside Dean. And Sam and Dean were one person. And the doors in their mind unlocked. And they totally took the demon ("I'm a Winchester, bitch"). And I know I’m just repeating back what you wrote in incoherent prose bullet points rather than actually commenting but the incredible awesomeness and coolness of the whole thing is just there explicit and obvious in the text. How can I point it out without seeming redundant?
As much as anything though I just enjoyed seeing some of my favourite characters who'll never get to meet interacting with each other with recognisable distinct voices. I always hope for sequels of stories I love, but I especially feverently hope that you write something else that combines SPN and BtVS. You do both so well.